Oh Karolina, you know this all oh so well. I guess, like me, you have at some time lived through that sordid tale. I lived through it twice over with two ex-narcissistic wives. You have caught every little nuance at play, the light and the dark, the shades and tones, the textures even, every little painful cut into your very being and everything you were, reduced to a handful of meaningless dust. And then out of that you rose like a phoenix, out of the ashes of what you once were, to live again and experience the rue joy of a decent, well balanced person. You are a survivor.