Wow, this resonates with me and my own problems of parental alienation with my own four children by two ex wives. The sad thing for me is when I tried to explain to three of my children they closed me down before I could even get started and haven't spoken to me since. Yes, there is a big hole in my heart, but unlike you I cannot fill it. Like you I have written here about my situation with the hope that one day after I am dead they will read all about it, but I'm not convinced they will. Anyway, you did great madam, well done you, I envy you.