Yes, it is a big learning curve. After the second I was done with the very idea of being with a woman. The damage I suffered with the first two, physically, emotionally, mentally and financially was ruinous to health and finances. I spent ten years alone, not prepared to go anywhere near a woman. However, quite by chance, nine years ago I met somebody very special and here I am, still madly in love with her and happy as a sand boy.